I'M HERE! THE CITY

So, for starters, I live in a spacious studio apartment. B-t-w, it's a penthouse. It's not extraodinary, however it's, how can I put this....TOTALLY F'IN AWESOME! But--->I think it's fucked up that my apartment has a bomb-ass "PENTHOUSE" label on the front door, but when you walk in, you realize its not like, "ultimate-bachelor-pad-tons-of space-crib." It's exactly how the web site and brochure describe it: a spacious, studio apartment.



I am so ready to find out about Chicago life, it's not even funny. I know, I'm making it seem like this city is "the most awesome place on earth" and to some, it's definately not and nothing close. But to me, Chicago is a bigger networking market than Lexington, and I love the skyline...trust, the closest thing I have lived to fast pace life is Louisville, Ky. Sure, Louisville ha the always trendy, Kentucky Derby. But, thats it! After Derby, Kentucky goes back to be the same ol tobacco farming, Republican safe-haven, horse breeding, beer chugging, USA Gold smoking, potential goal-orientied place that I call home.



Don't get me wrong, I love my roots in Lexington and Glasgow...but I just feel a calling. I feel like I need a change in my life, and this here, is a dramatic change. I feel really salty b/c I already owe my dad like, $1000 in payments for setting this move up for me. He payed my first months rent-deposit, bought me $300 in groceries, took out his whole Sunday and paid gas, food, drink and tourism all for me, my mom and my boyfriend.



Their are many positive memories that I have in Kentucky. The beautiful night sky when you can see thousands of bright stars along the horizon, miles of field and just when the sun hits the grass at the perfect angle when you speed by, it gives off a nice blue hue. Kentucky is a very beautiful state and a great place to bring up a family, however, I am young, and anxious to discover a whole new life.



I wonder who thinks that I will fail this journey? Is it those who feel that I am going to miss being with my boyfriend and just run back? Or those who feel that I can't handle the subways and the rude people and the fact that I am only a random black girl in a population of 1000's upon millions!!



I feel different, though. I do not feel like I am like everyone else. I have potential. I want to produce. But where do I begin? I can't stop thinking about the internship at Harpo. I am going to send off my Producer reel and resume as well as cover letter tomorrow. As a matter of fact, I have a shit load to do tomorrow. 1. Cut on my cable, change my address at my bank, change W-2 info from my old job, change my address to asist financial aid at UK and start direct deposit, geez! Who would have thought moving is so intense! Not to mention, I applied for a weekend job as a bar tender at Bar Louie. I just walked in, all happy and bubbly applying for a job...if I don't get it ahh well, thinking about applying to work weekends at the Hookah Bar down the street... =)



It feels really good being able to :let m hair down: and do what I want to do without having to worry about what others think about me...being here in Chicago is kind of like, being able to express myself silently, without the stresses of self-esteem, and if I think I am pretty, or desperate to lose weight. Here, I feel like I can do everything I want to do plus more. I get a brand new plate here....



Lets see what happens!!